Life lately has been pretty normal. I wouldn't say that there has been a lot out of the ordinary for the most part. However, I have been struggling spiritually some days. Some days I find it extremely difficult to be content, to keep priorities straight. I look around and see all the things that "other people" have and think, "Wow, if I had that I would be happy." Or, I think, instead of doing my devotions during Sutton's nap I should clean, or re-decorate something. Some days I feel sorry for myself, "I am not thin enough" or "I don't get enough time with Braden", "The house should be cleaner than it is", "All these moms on the blogs I read have perfect lives with perfect kids and it is never chaotic or hard." "I should get a job so we have more money."
Is there a reason for my lack of trust in God? Nothing that I can say besides sin, Satan has not been having a hard time lately planting thoughts of jealousy and doubt in my mind. And I need to get back.on.track.
I am blessed.
I should never want.
I have SO much.
God loves me.
These are the things that should be running through my head, these are the thoughts that I should be focusing on. These are the changes I am making in my mindset.
I have an absolutely beautiful daughter whose smile spreads across her whole face. I have a husband who cannot wait to get home and see his girls and talk to me about my day, everyday. I have parents who love and support me and are there no matter what. I have friends who I can spend time with and take a break from reality with when I need it. I have a GOD who loves me more than I can know who gave me all of these things and only continues to shower blessings onto me when I am so undeserving.
I am blessed.
I should never want.
I have SO much.
God.Loves.Me.
My prayer is that the days when being a mom, wife, daughter and friend is hard, I will not look for joy in material things or earthly pleasures. Instead, I will find joy in the small things like Sutton sitting in the grass outside for the first time with the wind blowing her precious hair. I will find joy in my husbands kisses which remind me I have a true life partner and Friend. I will find joy in a God who gives me all of these small joys in my every day that I often miss because I am too worried about what comes next. I will find joy in the moment, in the here and now. I will find joy in the privelage of not having to think about what comes next all the time, and enjoy our blessings we have Now.
I will be joyful.
I will show love.
I will strive to be a blessing.
I will embrace God's love.
I am So Blessed.
If they obey and serve him, they will spend the rest of their days in prosperity and their years in contentment.
Job 36:11
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Bedroom
It is finally complete! I was SO close to having it done then realized I needed one more picture for a frame, doesn't it seem like thats the way it always goes :) Anyway here are the pictures of the room! I wish the lighting was better on these pictures but I dont have a fancy camera :) You'll get the idea!
On another note, I just got a new Amy Kathryn diaper bag last week which I am In.Love.With. I loved my Petunia Pickle Bottom one but it was just too small since I need to bring baby food and toys everywhere now, which I should have known would happen. Anyhow this one is the perfect size and actually zips shut! And is Oh So Cute!
| I totally forgot to take pictures while all the decor was still up because I was in such a hurry to get rid of it all, but I managed to get pictures before I started to paint :) |
| Notice this very dated and old old ceiling fan? |
| Well my soon to be brother-in-law replaced it! Hooray! |
| So much better |
| Sutton makes every picture so much cuter :) |
| In the middle above our bed in an old wooden window with burlap stapled behind it then I can use dry erase marker on it |
| Bedspread from Target |
| I left the three walls the same chocolate brown because with a newborn I didn't feel like tackling the whole room, so instead I just painted the burgundy wall Country Blue. |
| Western Horseman, so typical, love him :) |
| For those who don't know our bedroom was a living room before and the nursery now was the master bedroom, that is why our bedroom is so big and has a front door :) But is definitely works!! |
| Braden made this shelf for me out of a pallet, cut it, sanded and stained it. Love it! |
| He also made these two shelves out of pallets for me, love them |
| Mustard and rust red curtains |
| All of my jewelry AKA Sutton's favorite play spot |
| This wall decoration used to be black and was above our bed but I decided just to spray paint it and reuse it somewhere else |
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Easter, Ice cream and Fitness
Easter weekend was a lot of fun. Saturday we decided to do something fun as a family so we went to Le Mars and walked around downtown, looked in some shops, got ice cream from the ice cream parlor of course, and got coffee. Of course :) Sutton was thoroughly impressed by ice cream, although she hardly got any. However, she did get her very own cake cone and demolished it.
Saturday night my mom watched Sutton while Braden and I headed to his brother and sister in law's down the road to grill out with his cousin, home from college, and Paul and Lauren. This warm (ish) weather just makes you want to be outside, grill steaks and go for walks, I love it!
Easter Sunday my parents had my mom's side of the family to their house for the traditional Easter meal of ham, potatoes and all that good stuff. We had a really nice service at church and then headed to Orange City to see all our cousins, aunts and uncles.
Life lately has been busy and a lot of fun. Braden is getting busier at work, which is great, and he is really beginning to enjoy his work. Sutton and I stay busy also, between the two days a week that I work, walks outside, playing at nana and papa's and grandma beths, and being home we have a lot of fun. She is 7 months already and I just can't believe how this first year is flying and how close her first birthday seems already. She is not crawling yet which really, I am OK with. I am not ready for that added busyness just yet. She does, however, love to stand up. She obviously cannot balance well yet but I suspect she may kind of skip the crawling phase and walk pretty quick, but we will see. She definitely has thick Kooiker legs, daddy is so proud :) She is now, Sleeping.Through.The.Night. Hallelujah! We realize that it could easily change but it has been a week now and it is so nice!
In our home I have been doing a little redecorating. A long time ago I posted that I was redoing our bedroom, I am waiting on one picture and then it is officially done! I also redid a wall in our living room. As soon as I have our room complete I will post a full tour but for now, I will leave you with a sneak peak of our room :)
Some people have asked about how I made time to work out and go to the gym after a baby and I have talked with a lot of moms about losing baby weight and how frustrating and impossible it can seem. I know now, it is hard to lose baby weight, but not impossible! I am by no means an expert but I thought I would share what I did to lose my baby weight and how I am keeping it off.
I was pretty into working out and fitness before Sutton and was in a fairly strict routine when it came to the gym. But I was also at my "goal weight" and was not pushing myself as hard as I could have been. When I got pregnant my working out slacked A LOT. The closer it got to the hot summer and the more pregnant I got the less I wanted to do much of anything. I ended up gaining quite a bit of weight, a lot more than average. I am tall so there is a lot of room for weight to go but it was surprising to people the weight I actually gained, too much. I really regretted not making more of an effort to work out all through my pregnancy and the topic of my weight gain and worry about losing it was a frequent topic of discussion in our house. I was very insecure about myself at the end, which is not normal for me. Long story short I decided before I had Sutton that after I was healed I needed to kick it into high gear and Braden and I both needed to take working out more seriously than we had been and push ourselves, not settle. I got on the treadmill the day we got home from the hospital. I had just had a C-section so my treadmill sessions were by no means impressive, but I was doing something. I knew the weight would not come off on its own. I would walk for fifteen minutes at a time and slowly (very slowly) increase the speed and added an incline. When Sutton was 3 weeks old I started to jog Very slowly and not for very long. I was fine but this is a BIG no no if you've had a C-section so I am not recommending it, I am just very impatient. When she was 6 weeks old I had my personal postpartum check up and the doctor cleared me to go to the gym if I took it slow, Slow is not my forte but I tried to work myself up slow-ish. I made/make it a point to go to the gym 4-5 days a week. I was able to do this because Braden's mom who lives right near the rec center was willing to watch Sutton so I could work out. Braden and I are now doing the Insanity 60 day work out in the mornings 6 days a week before he works, and it is a work out! We are also still running some days of the week because we have our first 5-K next month, Yay! I know a lot of you moms out there have more than one baby and I am by no means suggesting working out is easy or convenient to fit into a schedule, and I know the more kids the harder to lose the weight usually, but it IS possible! You can do it! Even if the gym is not possible there is always some sort of workout you can incorporate into every day routines. It is so worth it! As a mom, I feel like it would be selfish of me to not make time for myself or make myself happy because I want to set a good example for Sutton. I want her to grow up knowing that health and fitness are important, and having a good confident body image without being unhealthy is crucial in our society. Fitness is more important to Braden and I than ever before now and I don't think that will ever change now that we have a family. It is just so important to take care of yourself, and it is not selfish to take that time for yourself. Diet is so important and I will be the first to admit that when it comes to food the line that always runs through my head is "well if I will work out hard tomorrow so I can eat this now" not true. Cutting things out that are so bad but taste so good has been tough for me but I have been doing a lot better. When I enjoy working out and can lose the weight by working out it is hard for me to say to myself "I can lose weight without eating right so I can eat this". Not. True. It is not just about weight loss it is about health, and as Sutton gets closer to eating what we are eating we are trying to make a big change in our diet and cutting out a lot of the things that are doing nothing for our body. We are also realizing how important it is to get all the food groups in your diet. When we did a 7 day cleanse we realized how few veggies we really eat and that we should be eating them more. Here are a few of the meals I have made lately that are delicious but good for you also.
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| Notice the reach for the ice cream, she got it |
Saturday night my mom watched Sutton while Braden and I headed to his brother and sister in law's down the road to grill out with his cousin, home from college, and Paul and Lauren. This warm (ish) weather just makes you want to be outside, grill steaks and go for walks, I love it!
Easter Sunday my parents had my mom's side of the family to their house for the traditional Easter meal of ham, potatoes and all that good stuff. We had a really nice service at church and then headed to Orange City to see all our cousins, aunts and uncles.
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| First time shopping in the big girl seat |
In our home I have been doing a little redecorating. A long time ago I posted that I was redoing our bedroom, I am waiting on one picture and then it is officially done! I also redid a wall in our living room. As soon as I have our room complete I will post a full tour but for now, I will leave you with a sneak peak of our room :)
I was pretty into working out and fitness before Sutton and was in a fairly strict routine when it came to the gym. But I was also at my "goal weight" and was not pushing myself as hard as I could have been. When I got pregnant my working out slacked A LOT. The closer it got to the hot summer and the more pregnant I got the less I wanted to do much of anything. I ended up gaining quite a bit of weight, a lot more than average. I am tall so there is a lot of room for weight to go but it was surprising to people the weight I actually gained, too much. I really regretted not making more of an effort to work out all through my pregnancy and the topic of my weight gain and worry about losing it was a frequent topic of discussion in our house. I was very insecure about myself at the end, which is not normal for me. Long story short I decided before I had Sutton that after I was healed I needed to kick it into high gear and Braden and I both needed to take working out more seriously than we had been and push ourselves, not settle. I got on the treadmill the day we got home from the hospital. I had just had a C-section so my treadmill sessions were by no means impressive, but I was doing something. I knew the weight would not come off on its own. I would walk for fifteen minutes at a time and slowly (very slowly) increase the speed and added an incline. When Sutton was 3 weeks old I started to jog Very slowly and not for very long. I was fine but this is a BIG no no if you've had a C-section so I am not recommending it, I am just very impatient. When she was 6 weeks old I had my personal postpartum check up and the doctor cleared me to go to the gym if I took it slow, Slow is not my forte but I tried to work myself up slow-ish. I made/make it a point to go to the gym 4-5 days a week. I was able to do this because Braden's mom who lives right near the rec center was willing to watch Sutton so I could work out. Braden and I are now doing the Insanity 60 day work out in the mornings 6 days a week before he works, and it is a work out! We are also still running some days of the week because we have our first 5-K next month, Yay! I know a lot of you moms out there have more than one baby and I am by no means suggesting working out is easy or convenient to fit into a schedule, and I know the more kids the harder to lose the weight usually, but it IS possible! You can do it! Even if the gym is not possible there is always some sort of workout you can incorporate into every day routines. It is so worth it! As a mom, I feel like it would be selfish of me to not make time for myself or make myself happy because I want to set a good example for Sutton. I want her to grow up knowing that health and fitness are important, and having a good confident body image without being unhealthy is crucial in our society. Fitness is more important to Braden and I than ever before now and I don't think that will ever change now that we have a family. It is just so important to take care of yourself, and it is not selfish to take that time for yourself. Diet is so important and I will be the first to admit that when it comes to food the line that always runs through my head is "well if I will work out hard tomorrow so I can eat this now" not true. Cutting things out that are so bad but taste so good has been tough for me but I have been doing a lot better. When I enjoy working out and can lose the weight by working out it is hard for me to say to myself "I can lose weight without eating right so I can eat this". Not. True. It is not just about weight loss it is about health, and as Sutton gets closer to eating what we are eating we are trying to make a big change in our diet and cutting out a lot of the things that are doing nothing for our body. We are also realizing how important it is to get all the food groups in your diet. When we did a 7 day cleanse we realized how few veggies we really eat and that we should be eating them more. Here are a few of the meals I have made lately that are delicious but good for you also.
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| Stuffed pepper with brown rice and ground turkey over lettuce |
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