Contentment

Life lately has been pretty normal. I wouldn't say that there has been a lot out of the ordinary for the most part. However, I have been struggling spiritually some days. Some days I find it extremely difficult to be content, to keep priorities straight. I look around and see all the things that "other people" have and think, "Wow, if I had that I would be happy." Or, I think, instead of doing my devotions during Sutton's nap I should clean, or re-decorate something. Some days I feel sorry for myself, "I am not thin enough" or "I don't get enough time with Braden", "The house should be cleaner than it is", "All these moms on the blogs I read have perfect lives with perfect kids and it is never chaotic or hard." "I should get a job so we have more money."

Is there a reason for my lack of trust in God? Nothing that I can say besides sin, Satan has not been having a hard time lately planting thoughts of jealousy and doubt in my mind. And I need to get back.on.track.

I am blessed.
I should never want.
I have SO much.
God loves me.


These  are the things that should be running through my head, these are the thoughts that I should be focusing on. These are the changes I am making in my mindset.

I have an absolutely beautiful daughter whose smile spreads across her whole face. I have a husband who cannot wait to get home and see his girls and talk to me about my day, everyday. I have parents who love and support me and are there no matter what. I have friends who I can spend time with and take a break from reality with when I need it. I have a GOD who loves me more than I can know who gave me all of these things and only continues to shower blessings onto me when I am so undeserving.

I am blessed.
I should never want.
I have SO much.
God.Loves.Me.


My prayer is that the days when being a mom, wife, daughter and friend is hard, I will not look for joy in material things or earthly pleasures. Instead, I will find joy in the small things like Sutton sitting in the grass outside for the first time with the wind blowing her precious hair. I will find joy in my husbands kisses which remind me I have a true life partner and Friend. I will find joy in a God who gives me all of these small joys in my every day that I often miss because I am too worried about what comes next. I will find joy in the moment, in the here and now. I will find joy in the privelage of not having to think about what comes next all the time, and enjoy our blessings we have Now.

I will  be joyful.
I will show love.
I will strive to be a blessing.
I will embrace God's love.

I am So Blessed.

If they obey and serve him, they will spend the rest of their days in prosperity and their years in contentment.

Job 36:11